juz saw her blog... didnt wan to blog de. but juz no where for me to rely ler... perhaps u will c tis.. perhaps u wun. but.. yah.. dun care ler.. think wad u ought to think... i am juz sum1 hu is nth in ur eyes. cos no matter wad i do.. it will always b wrong.. for 16 yrs... frm the day i am born.. till nw.. nth is alwaes rit in ur sight.. i knew tt.. long ago..
tt dae behind tis door... i was initiially studyin.. listened to the quarrel.. listening... n i was crying.. i will nv forget wad u sae... "since i am the 1 tt is not using.. y muz i pay?" i was nt angry... juz damn sad... perhaps u dun mean wad u sae.. but as a third party listening to it.. guess wad will she feels? i was lyk??? wad the hell.. dint use??? think again... buy broadband... my fault lahs? yah.. of cos lah.. everiitnk is my fault frm head to toe wad.. since wen m i right...??? wad is fair? wad is unfair???
fair or unfair? wad is unfair wen the wholeroom is made by ur choice... nt mine... wad is unfair... wen the whole pc computer is ur stuffs n nt mine.. wad is unfair wen i only occupies 1 pathetic draawer out of 4.. wad is unfair wen the whole wardrobe i only take tt bloody small part... wad is unfair... wen the whole wall i onli can paste my stuufs in 1 pathetic corner.. cum to think of it.. did u ever think ?? did u evr try 2 stand in my shoes? there's more... wad is unfair??? wen mama loves bro most.. papa loves u most? where m i??? wad is unfair? wen we go relative hse... hu is the one? btwn u n me... tt win the most favour.. how those ppl reacts???? towards u n me??? how will i feel? think .... think...
if u sae all those stuffs in ur blog.. tt u meant nth in tis hse??? think again... hu realli is worthy of the name... u haf papa hu thinks forever for u.. u haf ah mai.... still nt enuf mehs???
u thought tt u r the onli facing the unjustice.... but u r wrong lor... remember the incident long ago??? i was accused stealing... HER money.. u send mi a message.... i wld nv forget... in the end.. i nv admintted.. continued to b accused.. even till now... nth can change.. dat i am the baddest in the family.. nt u nt others.. Nv ur? isnt tt enuf???
all tis will nt v forgotten... but i tried after becoming a christian..i really think a lot... i was lyk.. juz letting go of everitink... cos i bothers to think ... cos i bothers to stand in tt situation... cos i bothers continue to Love all of u...
u think she wans to react tis way? everi1 makes mistake ... in expressing themselves ... n stuffs... haiya.. suan ler.. duno wad else to sae... perhaps.. all this grievances made.. is juz 2 let u noe... if u think tis is unfair? tis is nt... if u think u r the most unworhty in tis hse.. u r not... the 1 tt is is mE... but i am not doin anytink abt it.. simply bcos i cant do anitink..
for many reasons wad has been goin on in my life.. the whole family shld b responsible.. but i thought tt one Love is the strongest.. nth else bad is goin thru it... but... looks lyk.. tis doesnt seems to b the way...
but wad the heck.. even if everitink falls.. i am still believing it... i am hurt.. i am sad.. i am pissed too... but i am nw silently ggoin thru it all.. Alone...
no one in the family i can depend on.. onli my few trusted frens... n the onli Him in my life.. Only them..
dancing all night long _ *
2:41 PM
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Sunday, September 26, 2004
i aAM sIck..
wHaOz.. sO lOng nO blOg.. goRt sOooO mUch tO sAe...
1stLy... kinda upset wif a lot of tinks lo..... family 1st bahz.... sumtimes was really wondering.. wad i really did wrong... so wrong.. tt causes so much probz lor... so much to take.. instead, its tooo much to b taken in lor... lyk the fatty acid... Saturated ler.... canot take in ... canot react anymore wif other products oredi.... to Continue the reaction to b done...
2nDly.. kip bothering myself wif a lot a lot of sch work.. prelims wad.. den muz kip studying lorz... bo bian mah... but.. v jia lat leh.. study till i am realli ssick sia... jit tao paper till half.. den gt fever.. assk examiner for tissue somemore....... damn paisehs sia.. haha.. but hu cares!!! haha... v cool leh.. God's timing damn zhun... the next day no paper mah... so jit tao can rest! n SLP all the way.. think its due to the irregular sleep bah..tt's y will sick.. so long nv sick ler... damn bu xi guan... lyk funny funny 1.... i Hate to b siCk!!! so weak lidat.. machiumz sissy leh!! hahahha...
but c soooo many ppl guan xin u.... woo hoo~ v sweet wor... lolz...
2dae... v v v v fun.. church funfair!!! hehez... v fun.. but damn dissapointed.. cos a lot of ppl promise they will cum de.. but they nv lor.. haiya... lyk i sae.... Dun Ever Promise Anything To Me... isnt tt true??? haiya.. suan ler lah.. perhaps will xi guan de lor...
wahhahha... nvm... den v fun.. we jit tao v early go.. n set up stalls.. game leh.. v cool n INTERESTING! of cos.. the idea came frm the One N Only UthNiTy hoRs... hehes... den gt bread prepared my vivian.. n coPi... by KriS... fun fun n v fun!! haha... hope ever1 enjoy ler... but hor.. my good n sweet members... jit tao all v gud lor... all take balloons chase mi.. wahz... nth 2 sae... so *childish* hahha... *oopS* but really mah!!! i not scared leh!!! for wad man! lolz.. pls hor.. my dearest member... jiu suan i plead u bah.. DUN DO THAT AGAIN LEH!!!
alrittz... 2ml is PHY! tue iS mAThs N sCi!!! after tt will go YUM CHA wif my frens ler!!! hhahaa.... cos prelims over... wee oh weeeee!!! happi happi... but... bluff myself onli lah.. blink one eye... exam again ler... jia you lor.. wad to do...!! all the best dudes... chill =p
dancing all night long _ *
3:01 PM
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Monday, September 20, 2004
*mOndAy*
wAhAHas.. hAs bEEn sOo lOng sincE i juZ blOg lEr woR.. hAha.. goRt oNlinE lAh.. juZ lAxy 2 bLog niA.. moReovEr.. onlinE oSo nt ssAe v lOng.. pPl gUai.. stuDy okAy!!!
wAhAhAhs.. fElt sO nO lifE nWaDayS... wAd's moRe? oNli cAn stUdy woR... hAha.. tRyin hArd 2 gEt sUm othEr tiNks oUttA mOi hEad aS wEll.. tRyin hArd.. fEr bOth mAttEr.. hoOpefUlly wiLl b sUccESsfUl in dE eNd bAhs..
2dAe sS pApEr wOr.. noRt bAd bAh.. cAn wRitE a Lot.. hOpe tiNks gOeS weLL... No mORe Fnn.. no moRe SS.. nO moRe ENG!!! fEw moRe pRelimS pApEr 2 gO.. goNna kiP oN mUggIng hArd...
tiS lifE wiLL b ovEr sOOn dE!! 2 morE mtHs.. o lEvEl ovEr lEr.. cAn pIa.. cAn cHioNg.. wAh.. cAN dO a lot of tinKs lEr siA.. guD guD guD... hAhas....
dancing all night long _ *
5:57 PM
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Wednesday, September 08, 2004
tUeSdAy
whao.. juz back frm swiming wif shy wor.. b4 dat she cum study at moi hse... v fun.. lols.. guai leh we 2... ydae oso lidat.. den my mama tell her all my chou shi.. *MAN* den i damn paiseh... haiyo.. hope she dun bastard me.. hahhaa... u ppl dun tink u can go n bribe her oks? lols...
swim till v shiok wor.. den while walking back... mi eating my french fries.. she eatin her maggie mee... gt a few idiotic guys walking behind us... down there whistle sia.. damn cheeky.. but mi n shy bo chap dem lah.. den after dat.. gt a guy sae : "dun shake ur backside".. wah man.. i jit tao v v v angry lor.. damn 2pid lor.. walk walk walk lah.. for wad look at ppl's backside.. den i jit tao turn back n diao dem lor.. reali hate these guys lor... really damn childish lor... angry angry angry!
after dat go hm.. nt tt bad lor... until shy called mi.. her blog.. gt sum1 scold her wor.. sae she sucks all these.. wah man.. i tink tt person oso siao de.. hu oso noe shy wun flirt 1 lor... den dat person.. damn jia lat lor.. lidat sae ppl.. i tink tt SOMEONE is realli a sucker lor.. sae ppppl lidat.. damn guo fen..hope 2 find out hu tt person is.. sure bash him/her upside down... kick tt person into the pond ar..! kaos.. bully shy.. haiyo... hope she will nt b so hurt n sad lor.. let's pray tt the person will b found soon lor...
hais.. i myself.. nt in a good state as well bahs... 2pid mi... go did sumtink.. tt reali hurt him a lot lor.. i tink i realli damn jia lat lor.. shldnt haf told him all those tinks.. but.. i duno bahs.. duno y the hell i did dat... hais... juz simply tellin him the truth.. cause so much prob ler.. perhaps i no brain to tink of the consequences lah.. hais.. suan ler bah.. hope its reali over.. however it gonna b.. i'll nv forgive myself de bah... hope he will b hapier bah.. n find sum1 beta lor.. hais... juz v v v sorry ... feelin v hurt as wel.. 2 b the 1... sayin goodbye lor...hais...
dancing all night long _ *
8:31 PM
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Monday, September 06, 2004
cIndErEllA
Cinderella's has always been my fav fairytale wors... haha... n yet! 2dae was a dream come true wor... watched the movie with a few frens.. was indeed a v v v v v nice show wor.. hmm.. reali damn sweet.. damn cool.. was tinking.. if such a beautiful story will happen to me.. such fairytale ... so sweet wor.. lols... aniwae.. guess its onli a dream bah.. fairytale will alwaes b a fairytale de lor... hahaha...
well... tragically, sumtink bad happened today.. dun wish to give a detailed illustration abt it.. but ... was v v v bad lor.. hais..
nw... i noe wad is it.. wen ppl ask me wad u wan ur dreamguy to b lyk... in the past, i would juz sae, as long as i love him.. -blahs- but nw.. i realise .. its alwaes more den wad u tink it is... as the saying goes... more then meets the eye... haha... thank God bah.. at least nw i noe... wad is it all abt .. wad it is lyk.. b4 its realli too late lor.. wwheww...
dancing all night long _ *
8:25 PM
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Saturday, September 04, 2004
*pRo*
oMgoOdneSs!!! gOin baCk mSia iN jUz a WhilE woRs.. lOls... pEepS oUt dErs.. dUn miSs mi tOo mUCh aRs... lOls... wiLL b bAck oN sUn loRs.. hAha.. gO bAck 1 dAe.. cElEbr8 aH mA's bdAe.. lOls... tAkE it aS a sHoRt bReAk bAhs.. cUm bAck, muZ stArt cHiOng-iNg agAin lEr.. wAhahahas...
ydAe eNg pApEr woR... hMm.. oKiE lAhs.. cOmpO.. gr8... thAnk God.. hOpe it wUn oUt oF pOint loR.. BUT... cOmPRe wAs hELL! dAmn jiA lAt woRs... difFicUlt sEh... hAHAhas... kE liAn...
aftEr dAt wEnt kRis hSe fErs diSclEplEshiP.. hahas... mAn siA... gT a pEriOd.. wE pRayEd.. hMm.. kRiS pRay fEr mE... tt pReSssure wiLl b RemOvEd.. n stuFfs.. n dAt i wiLl b MYSELF in fRont oF othErs ... noRt Actin aNothEr pEijUn sO tO lEt othErs aCCpEt mE... tiNk iS God's Word ... sO duN plAy plAy.. hmM.. i aM stiLl thInkKin hArd.. oF tiS tHinGy... sO fAr i stiLL dUno wAd iS boTheRin mE lAhs... bUt .. sIncE iS God's wOrd.. dEn i bEtEr tReaT it sEriOusLy.. Hu noEs? iT mitE sEemS aS a wArnIng..
dancing all night long _ *
11:17 AM
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